November 19, 2013

These last 2 weeks have seemed like an eternity....

Went back to oncologist today.....I saw the lady I met last week during chemo.  She looked great.  Her grand-daughter was with her and told me that she did very well.  I was so very glad to hear it.  God continues to answer our prayers :)

So, I had my lab work and went into the room to wait on Dr. Krishnan.  The wait wasn't bad today...THANK GOODNESS!!!!  So, he comes in and sits down and we get right to business....
Insert "Happy Dance" here :)  I am beyond excited.  He said we would start radiation in a couple weeks.  As far as I know right now...I can plan on 15 rounds.  He wants me to keep my port and plan on coming into the office in about 6 weeks to have it flushed and each 6 weeks thereafter as well.  I despise this port and cannot wait to get rid of it!  But I can survive with it a little while longer (about 3 months he said) since there is no chemo :)  Oh my.....I can't even begin to explain or put into words the feeling of elation I have.  I'm sure you can imagine.

Please know how infinitely grateful I am to each and every single one of you for everything you've done for me during this time....for the meals, the gifts, the words of inspiration, the words of encouragement, the cards, the texts, and most of all...your prayers.  I am a walking testimony to the power of prayer!!!  THANK YOU all, again, so very very much!

This is the BEST DAY EVER!!!!!!


November 11, 2013

HAPPY Veteran's Day!!!!!

to ALL of you that have served our country.
You are all a gift and an inspiration to all of us.

THANK YOU!!!!!!!

I survived another Sunday...barely :)  But I did :)  YEAH ME!!!!!  Now just waiting to leave for my PET scan.  I'm anxious!!!!  I'm prayerful for good results and yet prepared if otherwise.  I CAN DO THIS!!!!!

This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything
according to his will, he hears us.  And if we know that he hears us - 
whatever we ask - we know that we have what we asked of him.
1 John 5: 14-15

Thanks to all of you for your prayers today and every day before :)  Their strength and power keep me moving and keep me faithful and optimistic.  Remember that hymn....."There is power, power, wonder working power, in the blood of the the precious blood of the lamb."  What a beautiful song :)


November 9, 2013


WOW!!!  I have the MOST amazing friends...EVER!!!!!  
*Yvette...thank you for dinner!  It was just delicious......I only wish I had been here when you came.  THANK YOU!!!!  It was all fabulous!
*Pam and Jennifer....that you too for dinner.  YUM!!!  Katy really missed out this time around!!!!  But hey - that's just more for me and Doug :)  LOL!!
*RIDGEVIEW Faculty and Staff.....I don't even know where to begin!  The basket and all the goodies....the kind words and the notes of inspiration.  You are ALL amazing and I so appreciate each and every single one of you.  Thank you for thinking of me!

I could NEVER....not for one moment.....EVER....imagine getting through "cancer" without the love and support of all of you.  Your help, your time, your love, your kind words, your inspiration and your PRAYERS!!!!  I am indebted to each of you forever!!!!!  But rest assured, I hope to live out my days paying it forward....every single bit of it!!!!

I saw this on Pinterest today and it is so very true..............

So, I'm starting to feel's that time of the chemo cycle.  Tomorrow should be the worst of it and then Monday I start feeling a smidgen better...and each day thereafter as well.  THEN there's FRIDAY...when I start feeling like myself again :)  Looking forward to each new day.  Prayer, Faith, Love, Trust and Determination make facing each new day with gusto possible :)  I'm actually caught up with work and the fundraiser at school is almost wrapped up.  Life is Good and I am blessed!!!!!

Enjoy your Sunday.....I'll be in bed taking it easy and looking forward to Monday :)


November 5, 2013


Had me another treatment today.  So once I got to the treatment room, my lab results came in and my nurse......the FAMOUS Miss LOUISE....told me I wouldn't be getting treatment today.  My white blood counts had bottomed out.  WHAT???????  But it might be my last......say it isn't so!!!!!!!!!!!!  She told me to hold on and she went and talked to a doctor....not my doctor though - he's in India.  Anyway - she came back and told me to nevermind...I was getting treatment :)   YEAH!!!!!!  So then some other things have to happen.  She had to access my port first.  She couldn't.  The needle wouldn't go in!  Can you imagine???  I keep taking a deep breath and she keeps trying to "stick" me and it wouldn't go in!!!!  GOOD GRIEF!!!!  Lucky for me, needles and sticks don't bother me ...too much...but you have to understand that this is a rather large needle and it NOT going in is a bit painful :)  (Keep in mind that all the while Doug is sitting there watching....wish I could be in his head to hear what he was thinking ...HA! :)  Especially right where the port is in my chest...not too much fatty tissue there ya know....quite frankly, the only non-fatty area on my body come to think of it :)  LOL!  She finally was able to get my port accessed and then it's time to draw blood.  Couldn't get any...They couldn't last time either.  They are able to 'inject' fluid but they are unable to "withdraw" blood.  They think that tissue grows over the end of the catheter allowing fluids to pass but not allowing to draw back.  So...she had to give me an injection and then we wait.  After 30 minutes she tried to access/draw it again and it worked :)  YEAH - again!!!!!!!  So, I get my pre-meds and shortly thereafter, chemo gets going and I'm out of there in a few hours.......I got there at 8:30 and left at 2:00.  Fun times!

There was a lady next to me today that was there for her first treatment.  She was older...but not old!!!  She sounded scared...her son was there with her.  We got to talking later in the day....once her son was gone and Doug had left.  I tried to assure her she was going to be o.k.  That chemo wasn't impossible and with faith she would make it through.  She said she didn't have too much faith in herself but I told her I did and that I would pray for her.  Please pray for her too.  She was so very sweet...I pray for her inner strength, her faith and her determination...all with God's make it through this.  She is in treatment every other Tuesday...just like me.  I didn't ask any personal questions so I don't know what kind of cancer she has.  Depending on how my Monday goes on the 19th, I might go back up to see her.  Maybe I'll crochet her something.

So....prayers please :)  Pet scan is Monday.  I'll try my best to keep you posted on how I'm feeling.  You know...everyone told me to keep a journal, that things would be repetitive each week about how I feel and what symptoms set in when......well, I have to tell you that mine has been different every time :)  Not major differences, but different none the less.  And that's o.k.  Since I'm home all the time, I am able to be ready for the unexpected.  Thank your Lord and thank you to my employer :)  You both rock!!!!

Dinner is from my mother-in-law tonight, my dear girlfriend Yvette Thursday, another dear friend and her sister - Pam and Jennifer Saturday.  I AM BLESSED......beyond measure.  I hope and pray and work each day to be so deserving of ALL of my blessings.  I fail time and time again, but I never stop trying.  In church on Sunday, Curtis told us all how it doesn't matter how you start the race, it matters that you do and how you finish!!!!  SO KEEP WORKING and KEEP TRYING!!!!

Take the first step in faith.  You don't have to see the whole staircase.
just take the first step.   ~Martin Luther King.

Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you'll find one at the end of your
arm...As you grow older you will discover that you have two hands.  One for 
helping yourself, the other for helping others.  ~Audrey Hepburn

For anything worth having one must pay the price; and the price is always
work, patience, love, self-sacrifice.  ~John Burroughs

Happiness is not in our circumstance but in ourselves.  It is not 
something we see, like a rainbow, or feel, like the heat of a fire.
Happiness is something we are.  ~John B. Sheerin

I'm happy and I hope you are happy as well.  This life we are given is too short to be anything else.  To all of you that are sending cards....THANK YOU!!!!  I'm getting them and they lift me up with smiles and the feeling of love they convey.  They - and you - mean the world to me.

Judy - thanks for the call :)  I love and miss you all.  You all hold a VERY special place in my heart and I am grateful to know you!!!!  XXOO



One day at a time..............

November 4, 2013

A Million Thank - You's.....

Here are my flowers from Mary Ann and Al...........too too cute :)

And the next day I got these from my most dear Arthur Adam:

Art and I met in late 1999 when we both worked for the National Bank of Canada.  We are both still working together but now at PNC Bank.  He lives in Buffalo and is an AMAZING person!  He makes me smile and laugh...oh does he make me laugh :)  Thank you Art.....I appreciate you!!!

More chemo tomorrow.  I usually go to bed when I get home.  Sitting around for 5 hours trying to stay busy while tethered to an I.V. makes me VERY sleepy!!!!  The benadryl they give me doesn't help either!  LOL!

That's all I've got for now.  Super tired and plan to get some sleep :)  I came across a couple of awesome sayings today on is one real quick:

....something very beautiful happens to people when their world
has fallen apart; a humility, a nobility, a higher intelligence emerges
at just the point when our knees hit the floor.
~~Marianne Williamson~~

and here's just a funny:

Sorry guys :)  But you know it's true :)

November 1, 2013

Laughter is truly the BEST medicine!!

So, as usual, I have felt really crappy and just yesterday....for sure today...actually feel like myself.  I made it to church last Sunday but was very weak and couldn't even stand to sing.  I just wanted to lay down!  But it felt good to be there and I'm glad I made it.  Each day is a tad better than the day before but each day is tough.  I'm remaining patient and resolute...taking it easy and getting plenty of rest :)  Aunt Jan, you would be proud!

So, every Halloween, we invite some friends over that don't have a "neighborhood" to trick-or-treat in.  It's become a tradition of sorts around here and always tons of fun!  Well, last night was no different.  It's always a very low-key event....which is good :)....but always full of laughter, food and fun!  These kids are all so wonderful.....the group of them....I love them all dearly and am proud of the young people they are.  Having them here last night was the BEST medicine I could have right now.  Seeing them have fun warms my heart and I can't tell you what an amazing, wonderful feeling that is.....especially during this time!  A special thank you to all of you that came.  All of your families are a blessing and I love you all so very much!  XXOO

Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old
he will not turn from it.  ~ Proverbs 22:6

I owe more thank you's to the the Fitzgerald's.....the beef stew was out of this world....and the cornbread was the BEST ever!!!  Ever I tell ya!!!  Cindy and Jackson......the chili......YUM!!!!!  Amazing stuff!!!  And the popsicles........perfect!  Jerry and fed us for days :)  It was all wonderful....the bread, the pie.....OH MY the pie :)  I think I am the only cancer patient at the RCC that gains weight each week :)  I'm NOT complaining!  That's a good thing!!!!!

And to my favorite Aunt Mary Ann......the flowers are adorable and the cake pops....or whatever "magic on a stick" those things are.....THANK YOU!!!!!  WOW!!!!!  Good stuff :)  

So here is a run down of what's around the corner.  Another chemo treatment Tuesday 11/5.
On 11/12 I go for another pet scan......I'll be "radioactive" again for a couple days :)
On 11/19 I am back to the Doctor for a decision on how to proceed.  If the scan shows absolutely NO sign of disease, I believe he will be sending me on for radiation and I will be done with Chemo :)  However, if there is any doubt or concern after the scan....4 more treatments as originally planned.  Please continue to pray for me.  I feel their power each and every day of this gift of life I have and know I can handle whatever the prognosis :)  

Update on my friend diagnosed with breast cancer.......her surgery was a success and she is cancer free!!!!  God is good...ALL the time and I am so thankful that she is in the clear and on the road to recovery.  She still has a long road ahead but at least her road is free of the "C" word :)  Thank you for your prayers for her.  I know she too is grateful!

A new prayer sweet friend Susan informed me today that a friend of hers lost her grandson last night.  He was only 3 years old and died in a tragic accident while trick-or-treating.  Please pray for the family.....that they will be comforted and find peace during this terrible time.

Here's a little something to make you smile......