October 23, 2013

Lots of updates...sorry for the delay!!!

I was back to the Doctor yesterday.  The lump in my neck is much smaller and there is no pain.  Doctor thinks it is a side effect of the chemo...but the location of the node is puzzling because he would expect it to be closer to my throat and higher...maybe even in conjunction with a sore throat.  Anyway - disaster averted for now :)

My white blood cell counts are still bottomed out.  This is normal and an effect of the chemo but, he is puzzled why someone my age and in such good health would not be coming back quicker.  Last time he chose to delay treatment  until the following Tuesday....this time he decided to send me on  for treatment.  YEAH!!!  I don't want any delays!!!  He explained that there is an injection that can be given to bring your counts up...but...it typically has an adverse reaction to the lungs.  He has never given this med and isn't starting with me.  Another YEAH!!!  I am to monitor my temperature every 1/2 hour and if I get a reading of 100.2 twice in one hour or one reading of 100.5 I am to call the office immediately and they will prescribe antibiotics.  He said to expect a little more fatigue with this round...this I CANNOT imagine after the week I had last time!!!!!  Prayers PLEASE!!!!!

So I head on back for treatment and I have a new nurse this time.  Her name was Jennifer and she was wonderful.  They are all so awesome over there!  I look forward to committing some volunteer time once I am in the clear!  So she gets busy accessing my port and wouldn't you know.....it wasn't working!  She had me doing exercises and laying this way and that way...nothing.  Then she gave an injection (medicine) into it and I had to wait about an hour or so and she tried again.  It still wasn't working and I was getting restless so I hit my port and said something (I can't remember what :) and she got blood!   YEAH #3 :)  I finally started getting chemo around noon and was done about 3:00.

Because my counts are so low I have to lay low and stay home - well, avoid places with lots of people anyway - for a while.  Keep my hands clean and rest.  I feel good today and am taking it easy.  Getting lots of work done; however, this mean sitting at my desk all day so it's all good :)  My mother in law the wonderful Ms Kitty is providing dinner yet again and my dear girlfriend Sydney is covering tomorrow night :)  How blessed I am to be surrounded by such loving family and friends!  

A quick update on last week.  Saturday was spent in bed sleeping mostly.  Sunday too was spent in bed just miserable.  I couldn't move and had no desire to either.  Monday was better but I was exhausted from 2 days of doing nothing.  Don't you hate it when that happens.  You've done nothing but rest for 2 days and you still feel like crap!  So, each day got a little better but I wasn't "normal" until Friday!!!  It was awful!  I hope to not have another week like that and would ask that you pray for me - for patience and endurance :)  I can make it through with prayer, faith and patience!!!

A special thank you to Holly Jamerson for the sweet gift!!!  I absolutely LOVE it and can't wait to use it all!!!!  Thank you so very much for thinking of me and keeping in touch!  Thank you too to Christi Gibson for calling me last night :)  I appreciate you more than you'll ever know!!  XXOO

"Your wealth is where your friends are."
` Author Unknown ~ 

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and sings it back to you
when you have forgotten how it goes."
~ Author Unknown ~ 

Based on these quotes, you must know how wealthy I am and I am beyond grateful!!!!  XXOO

October 16, 2013

Always looking forward to tomorrow!!!

As most of you know...I stay very busy.  I'm always doing something.  It fuels my life and I love it!!!  This taking it easy all the while feeling like crap all the time is torture!!!  LOL! I didn't even have the energy to get to church tonight.  All I want to do is lay down....not even sitting up is enough.  Every day I think to myself...tomorrow will be better....just wait till tomorrow.  Well, it's always tomorrow!!!  HELLO??

I went to my Oncologist Tuesday.  Lab work was good.  I've had a lump come up in my neck / throat though.  It is very tender to the touch.  He thinks it might be my thyroid.  He suggested I go for a scan....a scan?  Don't those cost like $14K???  Hello???  Well, no scan.....instead, I got a $20 antibiotic and I have to see him before chemo on Tuesday so he can check it again.  PLEASE let it be nothing and just a reaction to the chemo.  It is not on the same side as my port but is the same side as the cancer...not good...but I am not going to worry about it right now.  Feeling like crap is enough for now :)  HA!

That's about it.  I'm getting a little work done each day and feeding the kiddos.  That's about it though...and that's enough I tell ya!

Thank you Dora and Jerry for dinner....it was wonderful.  Thank you to the Hands of Faith Ministry at Avoca for the gorgeous blanket :)  And an extra special thank you to Phil and Kitty's bible study class for the gift :)  I plan to put it to good use.  Thank you to everyone else for the prayers, the cards and the love.  I appreciate all of you and your thoughts of me!

Here's a cute picture of Lilly enjoying Pinterest while I'm working.......



October 14, 2013

I survived (barely) another one :)

OK....I must be perfectly candid...cancer sux!!!!  This is NOT easy and I DO NOT like it :)  I started slowing down on Friday.  I slept most of Saturday away...moving between the couch and the bed.  The bed won in the end :)  Sunday was a total loss.....YUK!!!!  I couldn't move.  BUT....there were some good football games to enjoy!!!!!!  The later it got - the more I cried.  I can't do this 6 more times!!!  2, yes...6, no way.  I can't even think about it.  I need to get back to my mantra....."ONE DAY AT A TIME."  That is the only way this can be done.  Please keep your prayers comin'........I need them :)  XXOO

Thank heaven for Mondays though!  I was slow coming back, but I'm almost there :)  Back to oncologist tomorrow and lab work.  Nothing else this week but work and taking it easy.  The girls are on fall break and most all of their friends are out of town.....we were supposed to be as well.....oh well.  Next time :)  Katy has a friend staying for a few days and we are dog sitting my little buddy Lilly (aka Fluffy).  She's such a doll.  She loves me :)  She hasn't quite made her mind up about Doug yet.  LOL!

"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us."  ~~Ralph Waldo Emerson~~
"There isn't a person anywhere who isn't capable of doing more than he thinks he can."  ~~ Henry Ford ~~
Thank you Tracy for the soup :)  It was most delicious!!!!  Thank you too for all the cards you are all sending.  They lift my spirits always :)  I appreciate all of you beyond measure!
Hugs...............

October 10, 2013

Hair today...gone tomorrow...

Here you go......me with less hair (probably) than the day I was born:


I liken it to be like Charlie Brown's Christmas Tree.  If you touch it, the needles fall off :)  If you touch my hair, it falls out too :)  It's CRAZY!!!!!  So, if you see me....don't touch my hair!  HA!!!!  I know it's just hair...it will grow back.  But I can definitely say, beyond the shadow of a doubt, I do not like short hair...I do not like it, I do not care for it!  But I will say...it IS better than NO hair!  LOL!!!  

OK - there you go.  Now you know.  XXOO

I sit astride life like a bad rider on a horse.
I only owe it to the horse's good nature
that I am not thrown off at this very moment.
~Ludwig Wittgensrein~
(the horse's good nature serves me as God's grace :)

My grace is sufficient for you,
For my power is made perfect in weakness.
2 Corinthians 12:9

God has said, "Never will I leave you."
So we say with confidence, "The Lord is
my helper; I will not be afraid."
Hebrews 13: 5-6

I still have my moments of fear...fear of what's to come....but they are fleeting.  It is only by the Grace of God and the determination he instills within me to be accepting of the unknown and face it head-on.  

A SUPER SPECIAL THANK YOU before I go to Sydney Starnes for dinner from MOTO last night!  It was delicious and my girls were VERY happy :)  Thank You sweet friend!  I appreciate you so much!!

 Love you all!!!!!  Hugs..............

October 9, 2013

...GONE...

Remember Montgomery Gentry?  An awesome county duo that just disappeared.  Here is one of their songs:



Well, they could have added a verse.....Gone like Holly's hair :)  I cut it all off today.  WOW!  It feels amazing but I look so weird!  HA!!!  Luckily for me, my hair grows fast.  It's still falling out but at least the pieces are small now :)  I'll gain the courage to share a pic with all of you soon.

In Bible study tonight we learned of God's grace.....we should all be more gracious.  Let's all work on that...myself included :)

It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect.
2 Samuel 22:33

I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.
Psalm 4:8

~~Barbara Johnson~~
We cannot protect ourselves from trouble, but we can dance through the puddles of life with a 
rainbow smile, twirling the only umbrella we need - the umbrella of God's love.
His covering of grace is sufficient for any problem we may have.

I know these are true......I am living all of them :)  I am so blessed.  I pray for blessing for all of you too.  This life is too short not to be happy....not to be content...not to be thankful....not to love and be loved.  I love my life and wouldn't trade it for anything.  Thank you all for loving me and caring for me.  LIFE is good....GOD is good :)

Before I go I have a couple pics to share.  Katy went to her school's football game last night.  My dear friends Kacy and Ryan have a son Isiah that plays.  He wore those things under each eye....pink ones :)....with an "H" and one and a "W" on the other...just for me.  How lucky can a girl be???  Here is Isiah and Katy :)  It truly made my day.....ok, it made my week :)  



LOVE.........

October 8, 2013

Back in treatment today :)

My counts were better today...not quite where they should have been but close enough to get treatment!  YEAH!!!!!  It went well.  I was done by 1:30.  I worked while I was there and just listened to the TV with headphones and got a few things done.  The premeds they give me make me sleepy so I came right home and took a nap!  It was a good day and I feel good.  I asked my nurse....the fabulous Louise.....a few questions today.  (She wasn't there Friday for me to ask when they sent me home.)  The only thing I can do to keep my counts up between treatments is to take it easy.  Now, my Aunt Jan JUST got done telling me yesterday to take it easy no matter how good I feel and I believe her...and I plan to!!!!  *WINK*WINK* Aunt Jan :)  Louise said I MUST sit/lay on the couch and watch TV.  UGH!  Most of you know this is the hardest part of dealing with all of this for me.  :)  But I promise to do so.......my body must heal and I must allow it to do so.....so that is now MY plan :)

The weekend here was wonderful.  I absolutely LOVE this time of the year and the cool air.  I have 2 awesome pics to share but have to get them from my girlfriend first.....stay tuned.  They are AWESOME!!!!!!!!!  Can't wait to share.

HUGE thank you's to super sweet Jennifer, crazy Dee Dee and sassy Anissa for dinners these last few days.  I love you guys and appreciate you more than these simple words could EVER convey.  Thanks to all of my wonderful, steadfast friends and family who hold me up and help me through.  I am blessed and you are appreciated!  I pray for each of you that God will bless you beyond measure just as he blesses me.

Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you
want is someone who will take the bus with you when
the limo breaks down.   ~Oprah Winfrey~

Three of Job's friends heard of all the trouble that had fallen on him  Each traveled
from his own country..and went together to Job to keep him company and comfort
him...Seven days and nights they sat without saying a word.  They could see how
rotten he felt, how deeply he was suffering.
Job 2: 11, 13
How blessed we all are to have such friends :)

We've got this gift of love, but love is like a precious plant.  You can't just
accept it and leave it in the cupboard or just think it's going to get on by
itself.  You've got to keep watering it.  You've got to really look after it
and nurture it.   ~John Lenon~

I remain faithful and patient and blessed beyond measure.  Hugs.......Have a wonderful week!
P.S.  The hair is on it's way out so be prepared next time you see me........I'm gonna rock it for all it's worth!!!!!!!!

October 4, 2013

What a week!!!!!!

Sorry I've been away this week...things have been so crazy.  With my dryer broken, I was at the laundromat most every night drying something.  Donnie - my hero - came to the rescue last night and fixed it so.....I don't have to do that for a while.  Don't get me wrong though.  I totally don't mind going there.  I fell in love with Doug at the laundromat ya know :)  I just knew he was the one after all those trips and hours spent there together.  LOL!!!

So I went in this morning for my 2nd chemo treatment.  Before you get treatment, you have lab work done.  Well, while waiting on the results of the lab work, I got a little work done.  Then the nurse came and told me that my white blood cell count was low.....around a one when a 4 is normal or good.  SO.....my oncologist wants me back on Tuesday.  They will draw more blood then and if my counts are up, I'll get my chemo then.  Fingers crossed :)

While I am waiting for Tuesday.....I am to avoid crowds and do my best to pretty much avoid everything!  LOL!  No shopping, no going up to the school, if I do go to the grocery...clean the cart before and after I touch it.......if you know me, you know I despise grocery shopping anyway so......YEAH!!!!!  Doug will have to go :) This cancer diagnosis really isn't all bad :)  HA!!!!!!

Katy lost her volleyball game Monday night...SAD :(  I'll miss seeing her play for a while but there is still winter play with KVC and Emily will be playing soon enough as well at a local league here.  Our annual basket auction is coming up on December 7th at school.  I always work hard at helping get this event done for the school/teachers.  It's a lot of fun and provides much needed money to our teachers.  If you are local....plan to attend :)

Have a wonderful weekend.  I plan to stay home and lay low.  Maybe I'll even get some cards made....fingers crossed here too :)

Before I go...............a special thank you to the Weems family for the taste sensation, or as Emily called it, "heaven in my mouth".  Myria made us dinner last weekend and it was fabulous!!!  THANK YOU!!!!!  Thanks too to my mother-in-law.....she fed us all on Sunday after church and WOW, it was delicious.  Thanks for taking such good care of us.  We appreciate all of you so much!  Love you all!

We must not become tired of doing good.
We will receive our harvest of eternal life at the 
right time if we do not give up.
Galatians 6:9

Those people who keep their faith until the end will be saved.
Matthew 10:22

Have a fantastic weekend!  Remain faithful and thankful :)  I am!!!!!!  Hugs....................